The little girl lost in the woods edition

I can dance and dance till my feet collapse! Mid terms are over! I can sleep like a normal human being! The work load went back to the norm. so alhamdulilah for all that. Besides my attempt to ace my midterms I made appointemnts with various majors. I've really been wanting to un confuse myself and figure out what my calling was. Everytime I start to believe I know what I want, somthing happens and I'm back to sqaure one! So I've been wondering from building to building at the same time sending what seemed like billions of e-mails. I pray that I figure things out soon. I can't handle not knowing what I would benifit me in the long run. Running in cirlces is no fun, you know?

So I was working hard! studying for long periods of time, and trying to figure some personal issues out.I'm not going to get into them simply because no one needs to know. All I can say is that it's amazing how people close to you let you down so often but don't see how what they did was wrong and hurtful. The funny thing is you're the one that suffers more than anything but there is nothing you can say or do. You just gotta accept it and get over it. I try to come up with an expalnation, a cause, a solution, but nothing. I hit a cement wall. I personally don't like to dwell in the dark but there always is somthing that triggers it and it all comes back to my mind and all I can do is fight back the tears. I don't trust people much, it could be as a result of expereince. It happens to all of us right? ans there has to always be a bitch that can't keep her fuc*ing yap shut! And when you find out a bit too late, you hate yourself for being soo stupid and nieve!

I don't like depending on people to do things for me or needing help. I wish at times to be able to do everything by myself. I can't help but have the impression that I come off as helpless for whatever reason. How do I become normal? Not stand out like sore thumb? DO questions like that have answers? or are they rhetoric?

On another note, I am slowly falling in love. What a wonderful feeling! Who knew that autumn was my favourite season? It's the leaves more than anything else. Their coclors, the way they fall from the trees and smoothly land on the grass. The sight of squirrels running from one spot to the other insearch of buckeyes. It's perfect! Just right! But the rain, I can live without. Let me tell you somthing, Today I was walking on the side walk and headed for luch, it was heavily raining and at some point a car passes by and just drowns me in a wave of rain water! My entire left side and some of my right was soaked with freakin rain water! This happened not once but thrice! and now I have flu like symptoms! This will be the second time I get the flu within a 2 week period! crappy much?
Somthing has been eating my brain cells since the beginning of the week..Peircings, tongue peircing to be exact! I WANT IT! like real bad! I am dying to get a hole in my tongue that can lead to infections! what is wrong with me? since when am I crazy about peicings?(truth is since forever and ever) I am divising a plan, but I know once i get I will be the talk of the somalis in Ohio.. they will be like "did you see the tramp with a hole in her tongue?" "she is crazy!" "Look at her, she came from the arab world and now she's letting lose!!" I don't need that kind of publicity. I hate somalis for that! Double Bleh! I've been up for adevtures these days. there is just so much to try and so little a time to try them!

I HATE COLUMBUS OHIO WITH A PASSION. =)IT'S THE UGLIEST PLACE EVER!