F*ck it!

Today I am sick and tired to everything. I am sick and tired of myself. The way I stay stagnant in a crippling position and I do very little to move forward. It saddens me when I know that the amount of effort I put into things don't work or go the way I wanted them to. It hurts me like hell when I'm sincere and I get no appreciation in return. I am sick and fed up with the way I have to always be the better person, the more patient one instead of just being human and being a ass for a change. I am tired of how I get classified as dumb or weak, unable to work on her own. When you don't even know me! when such an accusaion is not supported by facts! I wish I could punch the kife force out of you! If only I could, trust me I would. I feel nauseated when I think of the numerous times I put up with other people's bull-shit and smiled back instead of cussing them out. It annoys the living day lights out of me to see others who must or have endured others crap! So today, I say that I have had it up to here and I just wana say f*ck you!

I might come off as mad or having a bad day,so yes I am mad! I am mad at myself and it's time for a change! a healthy change!