Temper

Sometimes you just got to let them go. Maybe in the end it's all worth it. I can't help but think, where did it all go wrong. Seems to me like every one's turning their backs on you. I could be wrong..I hope I'm wrong, but things don't look so good right now. I remember the look on your face when you got the news. The despair, anxiety and frustration all reflecting Christal clear on your soft,fragile,child like face. You mouthed the words "what did I do this time?" again..those words barely a whisper. But I knew it right away. I've come to memorize that scene. It's as though we go through these rehearsed cycles. It's like, like the universe is playing a practical joke on you. And somehow I play the same role. I don't want to be a part of this game. Standing around, not being able to help you,fix you..it's not easy. I didn't sign up for this crap. But then again, how dare I try to make it all about me? It's you who's having the hard time.

I can't help but try to remember when it all started. Was it 5 years ago? When you found out the "truth"? Is that when reality set in? Or were you blind until someone pointed it out to you? You know what, I want to shake the living crap out of you right now. I can't begin to wrap my head around your level of stupidity! Why don't you suck it up and get up? Fight back and for once in your life stop feeling bad for yourself. Although you're all over the place,start putting yourself together. Fix it damn it! Fix it right now! Quit the BS and do something about the drama. *sigh* I think I'm running out of things to say to you. Look at you! Your eyes are permanently red now, you pushed and shut all those people out.What's next?

TBC.