Far from over

My fingers have been desperately aching to express what my brain was thinking and let me just say, I have transformed into a blonde recently. No, that doesnot mean that I colored my hair or that I'm some kind of stereotype-ER(and if you happen to be blonde then just suck it up and be a man ok?) but that I have been seriously having violent episodes of dumbness. Where, how or when this developed I do not know but one thing is for sure, I am not liking it one bit! I am convinced physics has something to do with all of this. Ever since I started taking that darn class, I've been acting funky, for instance, I catch myself including the word "like" in every single sentence of mine. Or when I would say btw instead of by the way orr screaming omg instead of saying oh my god..it doesn't stop there..remember how I had horrible math skills? well, let's just say that horrible is an understatement. I mean, if there was a new form retardation out there it would be the ayan-syndrome! Lord knows I need some serious help. But you know what, I think my brain is taking mental short cuts! you know, save energy for performing physics calculations. Let's be honest here, that class is a waste of time, I mean when am I ever gona use one of Newton's laws? Seriously? who needs to know the acceleration or the normal force? I'm trying to be a freakin physician..GOD!! Sometimes I just think of quitting school and joining a band or becoming a tattoo artist or something of that sort. Taking it easy and living life one day at a time.But in the end of the day, I need to be doing something "useful" my dad's favourite word.
This few past weeks have honestly been energy draining and nerve recking. It bothers me how midterms,quizzes and exams take up my entire mental space. No matter what I try to do, I can not and would not be able to distract myself, not even for a single minute. I am constantly reminded of the home work that's dew in a few days or the exam that's coming up next week or the quizzess that I have to take at 11:30 every Monday and Thursday. The nightmares don't help either. It's always me ending up with a C and boy do I not feel like going back to bed after that one! I end up worrying and about 99% of the time, I stay up, pull out my text books as well as my notes and I begin to study just so that I could feel a tiny bit calmer. (Yes, yes, that was a confession). I'm not retarded or stupid,I'm just what some people might refer to as being an "over achiever". Don't know why or where that came from,but I think is over achievers have 4.0 and I am about 3.7 ..soo,yeaa I'm pretty normal ok guys?

The quarter is almost over, I can't begin to wrap my head around that just yet. I'm almost done with Columbus for the year!Almost 9 months up in this hell joint!looll..Don't get me wrong, I met some people that are off the heezy fo shizy! Can't honestly complain besides the part where I flunked my driving license exam TWICE,(don't get me started on that one!) At least back home you could bribe the mother fuckers but here they look like their eyes are about to shoot out some lazer beams or something..dang it. But regardless, I have experienced and done things that you know..might be weird to some folks but you know what..ya'll know I'm weird already soo it's no bigge right?

I are a blogger, and a bad one too! HAHA but who gives two shits? I'm off to do a much awaited and important task of preparing myself for my physics midterm.